Finally returning to the blog. This is a section of the story from Kristine Finding Home that did not make it into the final book but adds another point of view to Chapter 18, Ordinary People Extraordinary Times.
This story is based on a letter written during the depression,Fredrik Hjelmeland, my grandfather and the letter writer has promised his wife Kristine that he will try to get an extra chicken for the Sunday dinner she will make for their unemployed friends, Louise and Hans Wange and their friends. We pick up the story with Fredrik trying to make a sale.
Letter from Fredrik Hjelmeland in Waukegan Illinois to his brother F. Mikal Hjelmeland in Bygstad, Norway, September 3, 1933.
“For more than three years now, we have been having bad times here in America and it isn’t any better now as far as we can see. Activities within the building trades have completely stopped… Brother it is hard to understand that this can be America. I have never seen a mess like this.”
“So, what do you say Mueller? Barn and house in a package? Better price that way than if you do them separately?” Fredrik stretched back in his chair, full from the hearty midday meal with Mueller on his dairy farm in Kenosha County, Wisconsin. “Safer, too. Did you hear about the place near Brown’s Lake? Barn burned to the ground. Said it was the lanterns the milk hands used.”
The ruddy German farmer sipped his dinner beer. “You’re making it hard for me to say no, Hjelmeland.”
“We’ll make both our wives easier to live with if you add some lights to this place.” Fredrik pressed his advantage as Mueller’s wife topped off their glasses before serving them baked apples. “Thank you, Frieda, the meatballs were delicious. Your meal reminded me of home.”
Frieda smiled as she turned to fetch the dessert but not before lifting an eyebrow at her husband,
“So, you’ll take $25 off if I give you a few chickens?” Mueller asked.
“Not the scrawny ones. One today and one a month until Christmas.” Fredrik was pretty sure he had the sale now. This tight old farmer loved a bargain even though he had plenty of cash.
The trick was to be patient. He’d shared more than one glass of home brew listening to men talk about who was buying, who was going under.
“I’m going up the road to see Kipnes before milking, should I stop back here?” Fredrik asked.
“Can you get here before we milk? I want to know where exactly in the barn you’ll be putting the wires and lights.”
Hours later Fredrik drove through the dusk accompanied by cackling from the back seat. A large hen, with her legs tied together was part of Fredrik’s deposit from Mueller. Kristine preferred her birds butchered but she would not complain over the extra chicken for Sunday dinner.
Hans Wange and Fredrik sat down for kaffe at a table in Kristine’s flower garden. Fall roses and orange zinnias bloomed in the mild September sun. “Almost like Sogn, isn’t it Fredrik? Sitting in the garden after Sunday middag.”
Fredrik passed him the sugar cubes and they slurped the thick, dark coffee through the cube. The children played behind them. Kristine and Louise cleaned up from dinner in the house. Fredrik thought about gardens in Norway. He remembered long summer days but too many Sundays when there wasn’t enough cash for a decent cup of coffee.
“How’s it going? Any job prospects?” Fredrik knew the answer but felt he should ask.
“None here. I heard from my cousin in Minnesota. He said that I could come help him on the farm. We’d have a roof over our heads and something to eat, but it’s been a long time since I was a farmer. And Louise, she’s never lived on a farm.”
“Kristine hasn’t either. She’s never even milked a cow. Must be why she and Louise spend so much time together, complaining about plucking chickens.” They both laughed. Fredrik thought it was the first time he’d seen Hans smile.
“Do you know if your cousin has the land free and clear? If he has a mortgage, you could be worse off than you are here.” Fredrik’s trade was electricity but his passion was real estate.
Han’s smile disappeared. “That’s Louise’s argument. If we’re going to move, she wants to go back to Norway. What have you heard from home?”
Fredrik offered him a cigarette and they both lit up.
“Takk, thanks, I haven’t had many lately. Can’t afford them.”
“What I hear is not good. I’ve thought about going back myself, but my brother wrote, that without the family farm he would have a tough time. Work off the farm is hard to find, especially for tradesmen. It’s the worst in Oslo and Bergen. .” Fredrik said.
Hans didn’t say anything for what seemed a long time. “Well, I guess that leaves me out there too.”
Fredrik sighed, “Ah well, I think things will get better. I like Roosevelt. Maybe he can turn things around. Don’t give up, it took a lot for you to leave Norway and get here. You’ll see, the factories will come back.”
“Maybe, but I tell you Fredrik, it’s a terrible thing to have only bad choices.”
“I’d like to compare the situation with an abyss or bottomless pit. ………. But still, I’m much better off than many in my class.”
Over fifty years ago, I accompanied my grandmother on a trip to Førde, Norway to visit her aging brothers and sister. The eldest grandchild, I was designated to help Grandma in her travels if she needed it. Even though I went along with my duty to represent our family, I did not anticipate feeling any connection to Grandma’s family or her far away home in Norway. A teenager still trying to figure myself out, I had never wondered about my grandma going to school or having friends or being my age. She was Grandma. If I helped her a bit, I also learned how closely I am tied to the people and location of Førde, my mother`s birthplace.
Today, I am the eldest living person in our immediate family who has personal memories of the people of Grandma´s generation. My mother, her sister and most of their fifty- two first cousins have died. Dusty boxes of black and white brittle snapshots, fading color slides, crumbling, handwritten letters and postcards bring back names and expand stories, many from that first trip with Grandma Kristine. I have returned to Førde regularly and claim it as one of my homes even though I lived there for only a few months as a college student.
For four weeks, Grandma took me to Grandpa and her sibling´s homes. We stayed in the house where my mother was born, and worshipped at the church where she was baptized. We visited Grandma’s childhood friends’ apartments, farms and hyttes, mountain cabins, and day after day had kaffe, the Norwegian version of tea-time, a mini meal. Not understanding Norwegian, I learned to cross stitch, ate too many cakes and grew to understand this was a trip about people more than places.
We did do some sight-seeing on the way to visiting. I am still teased about the pumps, dress coat and white straw hat I wore to see my first glacier. We saw medieval stave churches and I hiked in the mountains, but the real purpose of the trip was to experience a Grandma´s way of life before America.
I celebrated my birthday at a summer home, hytte, on the sparkling shores of a mountain lake, Jølster. I knew very few of the thirty family members who were in and out of the cabin and sitting in the sun. Grandma knew everyone, three of her brothers, a sister, their spouses, their children, their grandchildren. She moved among them with a joy I had never noticed before. As generous and kind as they were to me, the real celebration was the coming together of the generations with two of the family who went to America.
After the traditional birthday bløtkake, a sponge cake with berry jam glaze, covered in whipped cream and fresh strawberries was served, I was given the ultimate symbol of Norway, a handknit white sweater with a yoke of blue and yellow in a stars and snowflake pattern.
My birthday sweater was knit in the Nordic style of stranded knitting. There is a base color and other colors are introduced into the pattern. When a new color yarn is knit into the sweater, the other strands of yarn are carried along the back of the garment and picked up again to form the pattern. The yarn is not cut even when it is not visible in the pattern. For me, my Norwegian heritage is an important strand in the pattern of life. It is not always visible in the forefront of my days but is carried along, not cut, until it emerges in people and shared experiences.
The lives of Grandma Kristine and my mother Odny, are the uncut strands in the pattern of my life. Now, a grandma I knit stories for another generation, carrying the colors of heritage and identity. I am the keeper of the stories.
When the occasion seems to call for it, I have proudly claimed being a first generation American, based on the fact that my mother was born in Norway and “emigrated” here. While this is technically true, I use this fact like a politician to claim a sensitivity to something I have never really experienced. My mother was a year old when she came to this country. Her father was on his way to citizenship and her only sibling, a sister, was born in this country. Through effort and determination, her mother assimilated quickly among other young mothers in the growing town of Waukegan, Illinois.
Even though I did not suffer any trials of assimilation or indeed adjustment issues of a first generation immigrant, I am drawn to the stories of those early years. I explore the details, looking for clues to who they were, that can tell me who I am, why I have taken the paths and made the choices that I have.
My sisters and I reminisce about our mother and her independent spirit. Life as a housewife in the 1950’s did not really suit her. She was more interested in politics and the library than cocktail parties and neighborhood gatherings. When other mothers were creating adorable Halloween costumes, our mother was writing programs for the local YMCA or a letter to the editor. She loved to cook but was not content with meat, potatoes and jello. An early adherent to fresh and local, she would haul us out of bed during summer vacation to help her pick strawberries or apples at the nearest U-Pick farm. Her mothering of five children was loving but haphazard. We might be enrolled in swimming lessons but sent alone on the bus to attend without the proper swimsuit and hat.
At the height of the civil rights movement, she enlisted the local synagogue’s help to pilot the first HeadStart program in Northern Illinois. With too little funding to hire someone to recruit students, she drafted her teenage children to go door to door in poor neighborhoods. At ages 13 to 16, my siblings and I were cold calling on families to enroll their four year olds in this new program. Her single minded pursuit of what she believed in was perceived as boldness. Today, jeopardizing our safety for her program would be considered folly at best.
In a time when women choose their names, own property and have their own checking accounts, my sisters and I marvel over her choices and bemoan that she was so unconventional. We laugh to remember how she got us to cook, clean bathrooms and scrub floors, so she could pursue what really interested her.
My peers and I think we were the first generation to make hard choices about careers and child rearing, whether to marry or stay married, to use our college degrees in a male dominated work force. We are proud of what we rejected. We didn’t trust anyone over thirty, or forty or whatever decade marker we were approaching until sometime in our fifties when that no longer worked. We insist on not being ignored in our old age. As boomers, we believe that we are the ones who changed it all.
But in fact, we stand on the shoulders of those women who stayed at home and made our school lunches, sewed our clothes and read us stories, who advocated for college for both girls and boys. If they worked outside the home, they balanced the routine jobs of sales, typing, nursing, social work or teaching with their family life. Devoting time to leading the Sunday School, or the PTA, organizing the neighborhood fundraiser, they taught us how to use our skills in the community.
Now, my granddaughters listen to my stories of immigration as pleasant but archaic tales of a time that has little to do with them and their concerns. But our daughter asks about my life? What was it really like to be the only woman in the boardroom? Did your employee ever do this? How did you figure out how to be where when?
She recognizes in my stories the determination of her grandma and courage of her great grandma, to leave homeland and everything familiar. I tell her that I only recently have come to appreciate the difficulties they faced and the strengths we inherit.
The Shakers have an old song that ends,
To bow and to bend I will not be ashamed
To turn, turn will be my delight
'Til by turning, turning,
I come 'round right.
Do daughters just keep turning? Have I turned away from, around and now towards my mother? Eldest daughter of eldest daughter am I coming round right? Maybe, we are all assimilating, adapting the past to the present. A new generation in the way things are now, built upon the bowing and bending of another generation.